okay, i feel better. i’m now at the point where ivf is just another medical procedure in a medium sized list of procedures. i’m annoyed but semi-hopeful.
i’ve always identified with the goddess persephone for some reason. but i think that infertility might be more a demeter journey. demeter is persephone’s mother. when persephone is lost, demeter searches tirelessly for her. her resources are spent, hope is dead, her mood is dark, the world is bleak. then, one day on the journey, someone makes her laugh and she is renewed. [an aside: the one that makes her laugh is a crone, thought to be another, older incarnation of demeter herself. the crone makes demeter laugh by flashing her va-jay-jay].
the messages i see in this are 1) one can easily become single minded to the point of despair in pursuit of a child therefore 2) i’ve got to lighten up. so i have.
spring is so nice in florida. a hopeful time for sure.
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