Well, I have suddenly become pretty uncomfortable. That's an understatement, but I really hate to complain and whine. I'm still not miserable, I keep telling myself…still not miserable, still not miserable, still not miserable. On Saturday I woke up unable to walk well. It just wouldn't happen. I was really, really slow and pretty weak. It just seemed as though my legs and hips had had enough. I continued about my already minimal activities of daily living in spite of this and was rewarded with serious hip and low back pain that made every step really difficult. Miraculously, at about 9 pm last night, I discovered that I can walk sideways and backwards without much pain. Ridiculous. I see the humor in this, but I'm uncomfortable so I can only muster a sarcastic chuckle. I've heard this can happen when the babies move lower into the pelvis, but I don't sense that that has happened. I think that the babies suddenly gained a bunch of weight and my body is rebelling. If I'm correct, then my body should adapt in a few days and I'll figure out how to bear the new weight and walk again. I'm hoping this isn't the final mutiny against the abuse my body has been put through over the last months. Luckily, I'm not having any uterine cramping or even many Braxton-Hicks. I have like one Braxton-Hicks a day at 7 pm. It's uncanny. That has been going on for weeks upon weeks though, probably due to some circadian rhythm related phenomenon or something.
I'm anxious about the physical deconditioning that is happening due to lack of ability to, well, move. I hope I have the physical stamina to labor, if that should be the way it goes. I keep thinking about the time I ran the Bay to Breakers without any training. I did it. When it comes to sports, I often do better not having trained. I'm hoping that would apply to labor too. Beginners luck. This could be a fantasy. Yeah, probably is.
I'm going back to bed now.
After my labor with Ruth (which wasn't easy, given her exceptionally large head), I told my mom how proud of myself I was for having done it. In fact, I shared with her the moment during labor when I seriously felt like I wasn't going to be able to give birth, but how I pushed through it and did it anyway. I was so pleased. She curtly replied, "Well, what choice did you have? Of course you did it--there was no way you were going to stop!"
ReplyDeleteI say the same thing to you, though hopefully with a little more encouragement. You will certainly have the stamina to endure labor. Partly because you won't have a choice (you'll see what I mean when you get there). And mostly because our bodies are capable of amazing things when we need them to be--and giving birth to another human being (or two) is one of those things.
Rest up.
Ugh! Walking sideways and backwards? Okay, I had to chuckle at that because I had no idea! Every time I look at your page, I'm astounded at how far along you are. The babes are going to be here before you know it!
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you are liking your seatbelt bag! :)