4dp3dt

I woke up this morning knowing that the trigger shot has left my body entirely.  I only had to take half of the amount that is usually given because my estrogen was so high, but it still took 9 days to leave my system.  I know it's gone because I slept all night without getting up to pee and my boobies, what little I have, are back to normal.  They don't hurt at all.  I figure that at least I might know if I'm producing real hcg if they start hurting again.  I'm glad to see that people don't have symptoms at this stage.  I so wish that I did.  A cramp.  A poke.  A wave of nausea.  Passing out.  

I am left with one progesterone symptom.  Hunger.  Food is on my mind.  Cupcakes. Ziti with meatballs. Tapioca pudding for some reason.  Steak.  Kale with garlic. Cream of Wheat. Hot chocolate with whipped cream.  I figured I should take my higher iron prenatal.  In spite of this ravenous hunger, I have lost like 10 pound since egg retrieval.  They put 2 liters of fluid in me that day.  Before retrieval I weighed 140 and after 146.  They told me to tell them if I gained 3-5 pounds "over the next few days"...I decided to pretend that they wouldn't care about the 6 pounds I gained that very same day.  Anyway, it's gone now.  I peed gallon upon gallon this week and now I weigh less than when we started this whole thing.  I did not develop ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome. 

Some bloggers do not post embryo pics because if the cycle fails, then the photo won't be there to remind them.  I seriously contemplated this.  I totally get it.  Actually, some clinics don't even give you the photo unless it works.  Right now, having a photo of embryos hanging around the house is kind of cool, even if they don't make it.  It is kind of strange gazing at the photo thinking, "stay, stay!" while also thinking "forget you then!".  I don't know though, I may have an embryo photo burial ceremony to officially let them go if needed...the image will remain on the computer...so complex.  

The embryologist says that these are grade A textbook 8 celled 3 day blastomeres.  She said not to worry about the thick oval shaped zona on the one, it has nothing to do with the 8 cells inside.  It might be that that one is closer to the camera too.